痛心

今晚，我感痛心萬分。

曾是對你多么的尊敬，無論旁人對你怎么評論，我都如如不動，依然自在的坐在你栽種在我心里的那棵大樹上。因為我對你有信心，你不會做出那樣的事。總相信你會改過，你真的改了。

曾是多么的以你的成就引以為傲。雖不是我的成就，我卻感到高興，驕傲。旁人說可能你會在背后做出不為人知的事，但對旁人多么的有信心且肯定的說：你不會的！從然對其他男人多么的不信任，對你，我是絕對的信任。因為我相信，我相信你。

但今晚，映入我眼簾的一切，讓我心都碎了，我不能相信，這些話竟然會從你口中說出。是我把你美化了？抑或是這本來就是你廬山真面目？

多么辛苦丟掉的垃圾，為什么又要從臭熏了的垃圾堆里把他給撿回來呢？失望極了...







看見你在孩子面前吵架，勾起了我隱藏在內心深處的那一條疤痕。那一條我以為已痊愈、不會再痛、忘記了的疤痕。

請不要在孩子面前吵架！為人父母的，請你們控制你們的情緒！不要在孩子面前吵架！在他們面前吵架而對孩子造成的傷痛，我可以肯定的對你說，是一輩子的！是你怎么彌補，也磨滅不了的痛。

我不愿他們步我的后塵。
不愿他們有著和我一樣的傷痕。
不愿他們有著和我一樣的痛。

是我把你們看的看美好了嗎？是我把這世界美化了嗎？
還是我不能接受這世界的不完美？人性的丑陋？
平時看似已認定、已接受這丑陋世界與人性的我，既然到了事情發生時，并不如此。
我依然會感到無奈，依然會感到失望，依然會在你栽種的樹上跌下來。跌下來時，依然會痛。

這顆你栽種了26年的樹，就在你短短的幾句話中倒下了。
坐在樹上悠游的我，自然的跌了下來。

好久沒抱著枕頭吶喊了。
于今晚，我也做了。

如今，心尚在淌血。
好痛。
好痛。

I lost my Canon Ixus 55

Today i had a half good day and a half worst day. I lost my camera.

Reli got no mood 2 post about this but need to tell u guys bout it.

This noon i went to shopping around Prahran area with Grace. We were so happy that we found da Japanese grocery shop in Prahran and planned 2 go Grilled for a lunch.

I ordered a burger as my brunch and Grace did da same. We were too excited and as u guys noe my style, i like 2 take pictures before or even during da meal. So, i took my camera out n started 2 snap here n der. After dat, i put my camera aside on da table and started 2 enjoy my burger.

Untill finsih, only i go back home. I still dono my camera was lost when i was back home. Untill i open da candy i bought and wanted 2 take picture with it. Only i realized my camera was not in my bag. I keep on searching it in my bag but it reli not in da bag. So i find da whole room and i couldnt find it. I even checked my shopping trolly or da fridge. still cant find it.

i rewind my memory and i realized i din even put my camera back into my bag. SHIT! I quickily msn grace n told her bout this, after dat i ran to Grilled and ask da guy dat werking der. He look for da camera in da drawers and da rack but he couldnt find any. So he ask another gal dat werking der. Dat gal direct answered NO.

I heart dropped, totally dropped frm da summit.

Reli no hope d, cz i feel dat if customers found it and wanted 2 return, dey will pass 2 da worker. If da customer reli 1 2 keep it. They wun return 2 me.

In another hand, if da worker found it during they keep our plates, and dey wanted 2 return 2 nme, dey will pass it 2 me wen i ask dem, but dey said no. So i dun think it will hv any chance 2 get it back. Sigh

But anyhow i still left my contact to da worker and ask him 2 ring me if he found my camera. Although i noe its hopeless.

While i was walking back home, i passed my Swinburne PK building and there were lotsa bench around dat area. I simply sat on 1 of it and called Edmund and told him bout this. And i cried like nobody business der. And louckily no 1 pass by and saw i cry like a crazy ppl der.

It was reli sad.

Da camera mean so much 2 me, i need it for every meal i ate and also every special thing i saw in my life. I hardly save da $ and bought it myself. Spent so many years with it even Canon changed 1 new camera for me when da old 1 spoilt. Sigh, but now...

GONE...

Its my fault, i din double check da table for anything left behind me. Sigh... I was too excited bout da lunch and forgot bout him. Sorry my poor lil baby canon. Sighh... I feel so hurt wen i noe i lost u. U reli mean so much to me.

Now i got no camera instead of da mobile phone camera. Da quality is like heaven and earth. Cant compare a real camera with a mobile phone camera. Argggg....

I NEED A CAMERA!!!!!

Now i cant take any picture for my meals, my life ect...

Sighhhh...

And da problem is, i dun think temp i got da budget to get a new camera for myself. Huh....

Hard days..........................................

-SAD-